First time I heard of this song at a bookstore with my grandmother. I was about 12. It’s a surprisingly vivid memory. I was too young to take in the words but was certain it’s a sad song- haunting. To me, Annie Lennox has that gift. She could strike up her vocals and grab close of anyone who listens, well at least that's what her voice does to me every time. I never really understood what this song conveyed until after my divorce. Oh God, the pain was just excruciating. You know…broken dreams, broken self and ultimately- broken heart. During my marriage I thought if one could die of a broken heart- I could have just died at any point.
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When I listened to this song again last year, I cried my eyeballs out. I digested every word and hummed its melody. Every relationship, just as it is a 2 way thing- is very much still a personal experience. This song was like a best friend who has seen me in my battle. The friend who knew what was going through in my head. My ex-husband was a great man and I know he did all he could to make it work because he loved me- and perhaps that was all I could do too at that time. It was just exhausting to feel anger and sadness and misery between two people who loved each other intensely so I thought I would soldier on because that’s what a wife does and because I had nowhere to go from there. A lot of times I was wishing I did not love him- because it hurt too much. But I am glad I did love him… and that he was a part of my life. Left my heart hollow- a vast space for a new love … and I hope it’s the right one… I hope it is The One.
My ex-husband used to play this in the car over and over toward the end of our relationship. A wise choice of song I must say.
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